Friday, we had our 1st Komsel Gathering in church, not everyone could come but at least there were 7 of us which I think a good start for our group. Alfrits cancelled Foteinos meeting (again), huh, we missed another issue again this month (+_+)! We do need some more people to get this bulletin stuff going… I think I’ve been involved in too many kind of services and it’s about time to give the opportunity to the others. Mmmh, what would be the best subject to bring for next month’s issue?? Maybe priorities, as we are discussing much of it lately with the lack of commitment in the youth ministry’s servers… Yeah, I think it’ll be good to bring up the subject. So that’s that, “Priorities and Commitment”.

I still can’t sleep at night thinking about the HKM stuff that the notary was striving with. I can imagine how furious IK would be and no matter who made the mistake, the blame would still be on me!! I know it. I just wish I won’t be in the office when the letter come. God, help me, it’s not my mistake but why do I have to carry the burden in my shoulders?? Sediiih…. (T_T)

Abang & Kakak were staying at our place on Friday night and in Saturday morning we went to Wisma Pantekosta to help Uda Pendeta setting up administration & accounting procedure for the new Sekolah Tinggi Theologi Pantekosta Jakarta. Ternyata… disana juga lagi ada Rakorda Majelis Pusat... jadilah kita bertemu & berbasa-basi dengan Pendeta2 yang kita kenal itu. Luckily, I could confirmed Oom Lewi Sulu to speak at our service in August’s 3rd & 4th week (for a discussion). We went to home at around 2 something.. I just took a quick shower and when mom came kakak & I went to Krisna… Cuma cuci rambut aja, nggak sempet ngelurusin…. Dari sana langsung ke gereja deh, eh, ternyata lagi-lagi I have to operate the laptop & in-focus. Pokoknya malam itu gue capek banget dan sampe rumah nonton TV sebentar dan langsung tidur, mempersiapkan diri untuk kebaktian jam 10 dan jalan-jalan ke Kota hari Minggu!! (^_^)

Sunday morning, I woke up a bit reluctantly… But I had to go anyway. So after the service I met Ette at BP and we had lunch at Pizza Hut before “the gang” picked us up. Uh, we didn’t get the chance to take pictures together… Ette, we should do it next time we meet, I promise!

Pertama-tama yang pasti kita berdua ke My Idol Shop di Gajah Mada Plaza sementara yang lain nunggu di mobil aja. Aaahh, bener-bener BT deh ke tempat itu, karena barangnya bagus-bagus tapi uangnya nggak banyak! He..he.. Ette bought Ambrose Hui’s A1 album (finally) and I bought Z Chen ‘s May I love You? and also Lee Hom’s pictures! Aaah… gantengnya orang itu… Ada juga sih CDnya 4 In Love, tapi mahal sekitar 160 ribuan deh. They have mostly pictures, books & posters… Film-filmya juga banyak tapi kayaknya original semua, nggak ada English sub-title nya, nggak ngerti dong…. But it makes me desired to learn Mandarin even more!! Ette… kapan nih kita mau les???

Dari sana kita ke Kota, makan dulu… t’rus baru deh berburu film, dll… Ette & I bought Lilo & Stitch’s CD and movie, Ette also bought F4’s concert VCD.. Kita pulang udah sore dan capek banget… Kita nganterin Ette dulu sebelum pulang dan sampe rumah gue langsung mandi, nyalain computer dan puter CDnya Z Chen… Why did I turn on the computer on Sunday night? Karena gue dengan bodohnya mengira Ette ngasih lanjutan fanficnya di disket padahal yang dia mau tunjukkin ke gue itu gambar-gambarnya F4 lagi promosiin Lilo & Stitch! Akhirnya dengan putus asanya gue merangkai Puzzle Wiinie The Pooh yang baru gue beli hari Jumat siang sambil mengulang-ulang CDnya Z Chen yang ternyata lagunya bagus-bagus!! Udah agak maleman pingin nonton Secret Tears, tapi akhirnya Cuma ketonton 1 CD karena keburu ngantuk dan tertidur dengan (lagi-lagi) diiringi Z Chen!! (^_^)

Pagi ini gue bangun agak lebih cepat (surprise!!) dan orang pertama yang sampe kantor (sebelum Iwan tentunya)! Jarang-jarang nih… And until now I’m still doing reconciliation for the rest of 2001’s book. Lelah……. Untungnya ntar sore Si Jelek mau jemput, HORE!!!

“CHARACTER IS WHAT YOU ARE, REPUTATION IS WHAT PEOPLE THINK YOU ARE.”

Ette: Thanks, gracias, grazi, danke for the next chapter..he..he… I become addicted in “editing” it!!

Anyway, I couldn’t sleep well since Friday night thinking about the problem in the office. I thought I was going to get a call from IK regarding Miranti’s affair or something from AH regarding the Invoicing trouble with iBasis during the weekend. Surprisingly, this morning there’s not even a single e-mail from both of them. Dan tidak marah2 pula!!! Horree…. Finally I “almost” finish & understand the whole invoicing thing with Ravi… Huh… but I have to send him the new profit sharing calculation today anyway…. f (^_^)

During Saturday & Sunday I kept watching Won Bin’s Love Me Please.. It’s a good series after all.. Ette: you should watch this even if there’s no F4 at all in this movie! I’ll lend you after I finish it. It’s a friendship kinda movie, but has a very good point. You may not be a good person to your everyone else, but to your bestfriends, you are what you are and they will support you anyhow. Even if that means they will have to sacrifice their own feelings and needs. Oh, so touchy…. (;_;)

Last night I had dinner with K’ Ite, K’ El, T’ Lia, T’ Theta, K’ Prib, Ita, Mea & Meinel at Tomodachi. Suddenly all those tante2 asked me what I want for my birthday present. He..he.. this is a bit confusing for me… Last year I already knew what I wanted, but this year… Masa gue bilang gue mau CD nya Ambrose ato’ baju renang? Nggak lucu amat… Apalagi kalo gue minta yang berbau2 F4/Mandarin, bisa didoain semalam suntuk sama tante2 gue!! (*^_^*) I don’t know why, but I really don’t have anything I desired specifically like clothes, Christian CD, books or anything else. If only “Eleventh Hour” by Jars of Clay is available here… I saw it in Singapore but it’s very expensive (because it’s imported), almost S$ 30 (or equivalent to Rp 150ribu). Or maybe I should check “Pondok Pujian” whether it’s available or not.

I’ve considered the trip to Singapore as a wonderful birthday present from God. You cannot imagine how thrilled I was when I turned on the phone in the morning in my hotel room and found some voice mail messages & SMS timed around midnight… Besides, before I went I already prayed to God to show me some signs to conform my believe and strengthen my faith in HIM despite all this struggles in work and in my ministry. HE did! HE even showed me greater things, things that I never imagined before, and he has proven HIS love towards me during my stay there. I still have some questions in my mind, but I don’t think much of it anymore, I believe the answer will come in HIS time, not mine!

Another family stuff… Abang Onky just told me yesterday that Uda Kacamata needs our help in his plan of opening a school. I’m not sure what school is it, but he needs my help especially in accounting. He may want to use MYOB too and needs me to trai his personnel. Man… I’m not that good, I still learn to use the program myself, but I’ll do what I can do. We plan to meet next Saturday, I don’t know where but I wish it’s not far and not too early in the morning.. It’s Saturday man… Aaahhh, and I’m so excited remembering that this Sunday we’re going to Kota together… Pokoknya gue musti mampir deh ke yang namanya My Idol Shop itu.. Ette: wanna join us? It’ll be exciting, we can pick u up at BP after service then drive you home after that. Who knows we’ll find more interesting stuff/movie.

Ah… it’s already the 22nd but I haven’t got my period… It’s always late now and very painful too in the first day… Hard being a woman, don’t you think…

“I AM A NOBODY, AND NOBODY IS PERFECT; THEREFORE I AM PERFECT”

IT’S FRIDAY AGAIN!!! Yuuhhuuu…. Been a tough week in work for me, so I’m really looking forward to this weekend.. Tonight I’m going to Ette’s house to do some stuff, tomorrow I still have no plan but it’s Jody’s Holy Matrimony at 1pm. And as a good childhood friend, I should come though I don’t really want to (^_^) Pingin tidur ajaaa….

Last Wednesday Ravi came from Malaysia with an engineer named Kok Weng Pu. The engineer’s working with Emir for activation of BNA’s service or something.. I don’t know; while Ravi, AH, IK & I had a tough meeting regarding the profit sharing with Ravi. We argued and argued until 7pm… Luckily mom picked me up with Echa, Abang Onky & KK and suddenly we all had dinner in Kota!!! Gila banget nggak sih… Iseng banget deh tuh orang2 semua…

Yesterday IK almost miss his flight to HK. Though he’s not in the office, still I have a lot to do with AH. I have to revise and re-calculate last month’s profit sharing and this month’s cost invoice. So complicated, I don’t know if I can get the profit sharing done my today… Wish I could… Busy, busy, busy…..

“WORRYING DOESN’T EMPTY TOMORROW OF ITS TROUBLES, IT EMPTIES TODAY OF ITS STRENGTH.”

The Key to love

The key to love is understanding...
the ability to comprehend not only the spoken word,
but those unspoken gestures, the little things that say so much bybthemselves...

The key to love is forgiveness...
to accept each other's faults and pardon mistakes,
without forgetting but with remembering what you learn from them...

The key to love is trust...
though dark doubts lie in hollowed thoughts,
it must shine brightly on with reassuring radiance that suppresses fear with faith...

The key to love is sharing...
facing your good fortunes as well as the bad,
together both conquering problems - forever searching for ways to intensify your happiness...

The key to love is giving...
without thought of return,
but with the hope of just a simple smile and by giving in, but never up...

The key to love is respect...
realizing that you are two separate people with different ideas,
that you don't belong to each other,
but that you belong with each other and share a mutual bond...

The key to love is inside us all...
it takes time and patience to unlock all the ingredients that will take you to its threshold, it is a continual learning process that demands a lot of work...
but the rewards are more than worth the effort...

I’M BACK TO WORK!!! Though I wanna say I wish my holiday is a few days longer, I’m still happy to return to work again today. I guess I have a lot to tell about my holiday, but one thing for sure, I wish I could go there again without the kids!!! It’ll a be a loooong story to tell but all I can say is that at least I finally could hung around the orchard road by myself on the last night (Friday night).

On Wednesday, I still received some SMS from IK, asking me to prepare a presentation room at Buana and set up lunch with BCA’s VP for Tuesday. I did it all anyway through my cell and then asked Nina to follow up when I’m gone. I finally SMS him and reminded that I was already in the airport. He said he forgot and wished me a good holiday.

We arrived in Changi at about 11 o’clock and actually my uncle had prepared a rented V230-Mercedez for us to use while in Singapore. The driver’s name is Ibrahim and he was very friendly. So we just dropped our luggage at the Hotel (we’re staying at Supreme Hotel) then had a walk along the Orchard Road. Our lunch was a tasty crabmeat fried rice. Around 4pm the kids are already tired and asking to return to the hotel. So we did, but mom, K’ Butet, Chrissy and I just dropped our shopping bags (already!) and set out again a bit further. We return to the hotel at 6.30pm. I’ve called Ganny earlier and he called me in the hotel and said that he wanted to take me to a dinner with his friend. After a quick shower I waited downstairs but then he called me and said that we better meet at Takashimaya. So I walked my way to Takashimaya and met him in the B2. He introduced me with 3 of his friends: Julia (his going to be GF), Roy & Hilda, all Indonesian, and we had a dinner at Delifrance. I returned to the hotel at about 9.45pm, he drove me there. Then mom, K’ Butet & I went out again to buy some fries at McDonalds.

Thursday, the car picked us up at 9am and we had a little city tour to Little India, Chinatown, took some funny pictures at Tiger Balm Garden, and of course to Jurong Bird Park. The place was huge and we could spend almost the whole day in there. The collection was fantastic. From there we went to Takashimaya. We bought lotsa chocolates (for oleh2) .We returned to the hotel around 3.30pm. The driver dropped the kids & Uda at the hotel then drove my mom, K’ Butet, Inang Uda, Chrissy and I to Bugis Street. There I found a Morning Musume CD for Sarah and we bought many other nice & cheap stuff. We returned to the hotel by taxi We rested for an hour or so then set out for Orchard again. It was raining on our way to the hotel. Everybody had another crabmeat fried rice but I bought myself an original Turkish Lamb Kebab (^_^). We’re all very tired so we just changed our clothes and went to sleep. To tell you the truth, I couldn’t sleep well since we arrived. I had to sleep with K’ Butet and she kept coughing at night and kinda used the blanket for herself while I was freezing in my jeans jacket. So I guess the worst of the holiday’s the lack of sleep at night (“-“)…

Friday morning, we went to Sentosa Island. We visited the Underwater World, entered the Giant Merlion statue, watched the Dolphin show at Dolphin Lagoon and so on and so on.. So many that I couldn’t even remember again what places we visited. We met some University student on the Cable Car and they told us many things about Singapore. This time, I had a long conversation with the driver, Ibrahim. He said his father’s Australian and his mother’s Thai. He had 5 boys, the oldest is in his last year of studying medicine and the youngest one is only 10y.o. He thought I was a student. I think we shared some interests, in books and many things. He even showed me the largest bookstore in Singapore, called MHP in Stamford Road (too bad I didn’t get a chance to go there) and the public library, said that if I ever come again, just contact him and he’ll lend me his membership card (^_^) He’s so nice… Oh, he also lent my uncle his ATM card to get a 20% discount for Jurong’s tickets.

When we returned to the hotel, I took a quick shower then went to buy some things (like Echa & Tiko’s shoes, sandals for mymom). I went alone because I knew if I went with the kids again, I would never be able to go anywhere I want. I still haven’t visited the Kinokuniya Bookstore in Takashimaya and also I still wanted to find some Mandarin CDs which are not available in Jakarta. So after all the shopping was done, I went to Kinokuniya and spent like 40 minutes without buying any book at all (just read them in the store) and went to the basement to find this large and complete CD store. To my surprise, I found SHIN’s CD and THE GOSPELLER’s latest album (FRENZY). Those imported CDs are cheaper than in Jakarta. I also bought Ette 2 of Ken’s picture (Boy, was it hard… Anywhere you look you can only see either Vic or Jerry’s face!! Vaness’s pictures are easier to find than Ken… Ette, I think you have less competitors than me!!). They sold F4 pictures, posters, HP casings, almost anything you can think of, they even sold the red bag that Vic wore in Poor Prince with his signature on it for S$ 60!! There were not many English language magazine with them in it, though. Mostly are in Chinese Calligraphy so I didn’t buy it. I just bought 2 teens magazine and one small magazine with their stickers as a bonus. Oh, I also got SHINWA’s 2001 concert VCD earlier in the mall near our hotel.

On my way to the hotel, I met mom and the others but then I walked my way back to the hotel without them. My dinner was very tasty… crabmeat nugget, squid and prawn on the sticks which were sold for S$ 1.20 each. That night, we packed our clothes and stuff and went to sleep with sore feet and full stomach.

Saturday morning… HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me…. We prayed together before we left the hotel. We reached the airport about 3 hours before the flight so we had time to browse around and spend whatever we have left in our pockets! The flight was delayed for about 30 minutes. We arrived in Jakarta at about 1.45 and got home at 3pm. I just unpacked the luggage, took a shower and went to church for youth service (by the way, Abang Onky Echa picked us up at the airport). On Sunday, I went to the afternoon service and went home straight away to sleeeeppp….. (_ _)zzzZZZ… Well, that’s a rap!!

“HARD WORK HAS A FUTURE PAYOFF. LAZINESS PAYS OFF NOW!”

WHAT A WEEK!! I’ve been working late for almost everyday for 2 weeks. Last Saturday I worked from 8.30am to 5.30pm, I was so tired to the bone. And I have to drive myself home after that because Echa’s still in Bogor with Abang Onky. On Sunday, I decided to go to the noon service so I could go home and rest after that. Unluckily, mom went to “arisan” and I had to go home with Jatibening family, and guess what, Krissy asked me to go swimming with her. When I said I was tired and need some rest, she got mad and wouldn’t speak to me… So finally I went swimming with her, Tian and Timot and got home at 8pm!!

And this morning… just another terrible experience with IK’s temper (o_ _)o He went ballistic seeing my accounting report which showed no revenue at all, only expenses and so on and so on which to him is impossible. I was so shocked that I couldn’t say anything at all but starring at the paper while he was yelling of how stupid I am. And he went on with his meeting with Pak Safrullah and told him about my “stupidity”. I was speechless because I was so sure that I did it right and based on what he gave me. Then I prayed to God to keep me calm and clear headed. Finally I found out what he meant with the revenue. In his own book, he counted money from Online as revenue, while in the notes that he gave me, he stated it as paid-up capital. That is why there’s a great loss in the company by the end of June, because by then we had no revenue at all but yet we had COGS from termination with XL. I finally cleared it with him before lunch and he just called me from his car a few minutes ago to apologize and said thanks for the report. (^_^) Huh, what a relief…

Anyway, Ette and I didn’t get to see Lilo & Stitch in BP last Friday. It’s not playing yet in there. So we just hung around, had dinner in Firesteak and then I went to her house to get something. I got home around 10.30pm.

Whew… whatever happened today with IK, I’m just glad that I didn’t cry in front of him (though I almost did). At least I can take my leave in peace next Wednesday… BTW, we’re leaving Wednesday morning and will return (probably) on Ssaturday evening. I gotta get back to work now..

“YOUR WORST DAYS ARE NEVER SO BAD THAT YOU ARE BEYOND THE REACH OF GOD’S GRACE. AND YOUR BEST DAYS ARE NEVER SO GOOD THAT YOU ARE BEYOND THE NEED OF GOD’S GRACE”

I wanna see Lilo & Stitch with Ette tonight if I’m not that tired. Or maybe just hang around for a while… Tomorrow I have to come to the office again to finish the whole book of Akses Internet & Komunikasi Data.

Guess that’s that, nothing interesting in my life lately… Thank God I’ll be going for a (hopefully) nice vacation next week (^_^)

“Far too many people are looking for the right person instead of trying to be the right person”

HELLO (^_^)I had a nice weekend. I had to come to work halfday last Saturday, to work with the accounting with Pak Wahono. After that we went to Jatibening to Uda Kacamata’s new house. After lunch we went swimming (me, Abang Onky, Echa, Uli, Aci, Timot & Tian). It was fun and the swimming pool is just across the street. We really had a good time and planned to do it regularly… Fun, fun, fun…

Inanguda told mom that we’re going to Singapore on Sunday afternoon for 5 days, I said I couldn’t go because that means that I have to take a one week leave which is impossible if you look at what I have to do in the office lately! So mom called her last night and found out that Tessa couldn’t go too. Finally they decided that maybe we should go on Tuesday night or Wednesday morning and returns in the weekend. Good for everybody (^_^) Mom’s going to renew our passports this morning.

I went to Departemen Keuangan this afternoon to check on the licenses for Venture Capital company. Uuugghh, I hate to go there, it’s far and it’s hard to get a taxi from there (“-“) So I asked the taxi to wait… After that I went to the notary to get the copies of AMGI’s power of Attorney legalized. This morning Pak Safrullah’s son came and give me his new company’s shareholders’ ID.

I already told IK that I might be going to Singapore next week… He frowned (^_^) He just said that I should’ve told him earlier but he gave me “uang jajan” anyway..he..he… Yeah, I know I have to finish my job before I go, that is why I take some overtime today.. At least I can finish the small things like the monthly budget and invoicing. It’s really really tiring….

I’m going to have my picture taken for the passport renewal tomorrow morning so I’ll be in the office late. Thank God my mom’s willing to pick me up in the office tonight.

“LOVE DOESN’T MAKE THE WORLD GO ‘ROUND, LOVE JUST MAKES THE RIDE WORTHWHILE” (Franklin D. Adams)